on love...

I have finally got to spend a day by myself. Shut myself in, lie in bed and do nothing. hahaa... heck the museum lah. I will godowntown next week bah.

Was too tired...

I have just finished watching 恶作剧2吻. It is not the end of thing series yet!!! wah lau.... thanks leh. Actually, it lead me to wonder if Gong 2 would be coming out soon. hmmm..

I like watching those drama series. Made me laugh and cry like nobody's business. Yeah, I happen to be one of those girls who will just cry and cry once the tap is turned on. =PpPp loser right?? aiya, I just simply go with the flow of the movie or drama. Like a horror show, I will scream and hide behind my hands or if I am at home, I will just jump up and hide to the toilet to hide. haahahah....I think I am one of those very predictable people. I wear my moods on my face most of the time.

I have been thinking lately. You know next time I wanna marry someone who's as nice as my buddy, as smart as my boss and as stern as my dad. WAHAAAHAHHA... where did this shocking revelation come from? *shrug* pluck out from the air??? hahahaha....I also remembered I used to want to marry a romantic, a spanish, a french, an italian, a passionate person or and was even crashing some guy that I have seen a few times on the mrt. hahahaha.... silly right?? Don't believe? Will show you some extracts from my past....

"I am supposed to be reading my Newsweek right now. But I have this really distracting incident in my head that refused to go away. So I thought maybe I should write it down and perhaps it will go away.

I saw someone on the train just now. Nope, I don't know him, but I know enough that he is from my school. Seen him around since I was year 1. He was alone. Our eyes met. Acutally, we saw each other a couple of times before. Each time, just for a short while.I like the way he look back,maybe that's why I remember him. He saw his friend walking past. I like the way he pat her shoulder. Then he called out her name and said hi. I like it too. He was standing at the in-betweens of 2 carriages . They both proceeded on and found 2 seats. I quite enjoy stealing glances at him while I was talking to him. Opps! Hope Alwyn didn't catch me beo-ing him. hmmm...we can't say beo here 'cos he looked back as well. haha....

Everytime I see him, I would always take a second look to make sure it is him. And half the time he will look back one....hahaha Usually, I would just forget about the whole thing. But today, it is different. I found myself thinking about it.

AIya, if only I have half of Candy's kind of guts, I would have gone up to say hi. Aiya, too bad, I don't.....Maybe next time, I will try to smile. Cannot stand myself!!! Going to be 21 and still so po ma...Well, can't blame me, he is only that perfect because I don't know him. Shouldn't try to spoil the whole image I have of him..."-Aug 2004

"Life's in a mono of late. Can't blame. I am a student with exams round the corner.

Lately, the gang's been "talking" about passion. More precisely, living with passion. Without passion, we would be this thing called a zombie. Passion gives us colour in our face. Passion brings us friends. Passion makes you aim for the impossible. Basically, passion shapes all of us.

Interesting philosophy that they were writing about on email. hahaha....I have my thoughts about it too. Frankly, if one ever asked me, I do idolised passionate people. Passionate to the extreme till they are sometimes call weird. Seriously, a nerd is just another passionate person. I realised that one can find happiness in living passionately. Because if you live passionately, you are oblivious to the opinions people have on you. It is a strange connection I must say. To be so, one must first be able to let go at will. If you heard people calling you nerd, u never take it to heart. Because that's your interest. Your life would be empty without it. And if you find people who understands this thing that you are passionate about, wouldn't it be like the greatest happiness you would ever find? Probably that's why like-minded people likes to congregate together.

There's being passionate about life. I love the spontaneity that life offers. The chances and opportunities that one is being entitled to. Initially when I started year 4, I was filled with mixed feelings. Loneliness was particularly scary then. Most of my friends have graduated. It was really lonely everyday. I used to have people to hang out with, to catch up with even during a 5 minutes break. Then I realised, I totally like my life now. It is lonely but the freedom I enjoy is endearing. I can do whatever I want without having to care if it matters to anyone. I mean, I can really be who I am and live my life as passionately as I want to. Example, if I realised I can't concentrate in school today because I am thinking of buying that pair of shoes, I can just leave school and go shopping. hahahaa....yeah, alone. It doesn't really matter anymore because if I don't try to live my life the way I want it, I would not be happy.

Of cos, there's always this other connection about living with passion and being irresponsible...hahhaa...you know what I mean, don't you?

Oh well....lunching with weiyang. Have to go!!!

To end it all, here's something...think about your day today...

"Have you lived well today so that if you suddenly die, you have no regrets?"- OCT 2005