Greener pasture?

I was really bored last weekend. Partially because I got really bored at office one day. And I accidentally signed up for a trip up Endau Rompin. Oh. So I will away from SG over the weekend for an "exciting" getaway... ahhahahaha

*faintz* and coincidentally, a few days before that I sweared that I would never sleep in a tent or trek again...$%^%^&%^%$

Anyway, a dinner with a friend had me thinking about a lot of things lately. She said I had always shut myself away from relationships. Aiya, I used to give that excuse that I was recovering from a failed relationship. Then lately, the excuse was I have no time for one....

Yes yes, I am full of excuses.... but sometimes, these excuses are for me to sweep things under the carpet and not think or talk about it. THen she for no reason come and say me... *sianz* but to be frank, I am really frightened of an emotional burden in a relationship...

I am the carefree type. I don't like having to care about someone wholeheartedly or worry about someone all the time. I don't want to be on the rig and having to miss someone. I don't want to be a tortoise and want to run to him when something goes wrong. I want to be stronger than all that so that I will never feel that I have lost my independence or that free spirit in me...

That is what I call an emotional burden. I am enough of a trouble on my own, much less having to share my life with someone else...

So please remind me that I will lose my freedom if I ever complain to you that I need a guy in my life. hahaha.... I tend to forget what's more important to me when I start looking at the pros of being in a relationship. hahaha... =PpPp It wasn't easy finding my carefree self back. So for now, I just want to concentrate on my career and be RICH.

whoever said money couldn't buy happiness... =P *cheers* To live a life to my heart desires!!