Being Objective

I think as a only female on the rig, I have to be as objective and in-control of my feelings all the times. Objective meaning, I should not get swayed over by my feelings as easily as most girls do. Seriously, I think I am quite biased sometimes. Or at other times, get fustrated too easily. I can really be quite girly in a lot of sense. And I seriously don't think that this is going to help me in my workplace at all. Somehow, I seemed to have lost a lot of those toughness that I had when I was in junior college in particular. That kind of feministic views where a girl can do everything that a guy can do and even better... hahaha.. I think I have grown out of that phase. Less tomboy, slightly less clumsy, long hair, quit drinking and I DO try to speak softer. All these doesn't really help in my job at all... *sigh* then what? am I supposed to keep 2 different personalities onshore and offshore? Not that anyone has complained about me being too girly or something but I was just thinking about a lot of things lately. If only I had 3/4 of what I had in the past now, I think I would have been less of a pushover and get people to do things my way. Okie, I think too much sometimes.. =P going to sleep... *muakz*